baby #2

i went to the dr today...marking that i now have to go once a week till baby #2 gets here. the baby's head is still high...so, feb 26th is still the date. i have gained 40 lbs and feel every single lb! i wonder if i will ever go back to my slender ways....probably not...the heart beat was 130...consistent with a boy....don't tell tucker...but i would really love to have a boy.

quite sure a bad mommy.

my day yesterday didn't start out well. i hardly got any sleep...i kept getting cramp after cramp...not labor though. (thank goodness). i got up with ryan and proceeded to start our day...everything was quite normal other than i felt horrible and sleepy. i decided...i am going to take a day off...i am going to let ry have a free day and try to relax. ryan was having a great free day...she loves playing in her room and she is content while doing so.

we take a nap. i decided i would let her take one with me which is rare...but she wasn't feeling 100% either. we fell asleep in no time. however, her normal 2 1/2 hr nap i was hoping for came to a brisk holt when she woke up an 1 1/2 hours later. we get up...she wants to call daddy since 'daddy at work'. we call. he comes home for lunch. everything seems normal...except...i am feeling miserable, sleepy, worn-out...ryan isn't feeling well...we had some diapers that weren't good news. daddy leaves...we go back to life.

i hear ryan get up on the chair at the table. this is where her rocks are kept. i didn't think much. she goes to her room. she comes out not necessarily crying but whining. she has her right hand in her mouth and holding an object in the left. i look closer. IT'S A SHAVING RAZOR. i gasp slightly and take it away then she went crazy. i looked closer...there is blood everywhere. i pick her up calmly and take her to the kitchen while in my head i am kicking myself...yelling....ya know...being crazy in there. i grab a paper towel and run cool water and start wiping the blood to find out where the blood is running out of her little body. found it...her right pointer and middle fingers.

i try to press the cloth on her fingers as she is fighting me. fighting hard mind you while spilling blood curdling screams out of her mouth. she started to wave her hands and plop plop plop...little circles of blood on the counter top. i call tucker at work and say "ry cut herself...come home now!" with some panic...(yep, the roads weren't good either). i decided to just hold her till he gets there while warm tears are falling down my face. i have blood on my face, there is blood all over her...on the counter...bloody paper towels...looked like war in our house when daddy walks in.

fortunately, my husband is a sweet husband and doesn't yell at me when accidents happen. he can already tell i am beating myself up. i have him hold her down...since i am 36 weeks pregnant and wider than triple-wide trailer...finally i see it...she took some skin off...i clean it out and put some backyardigan band-aids on her fingers. i gave her tylenol too. poor little girl. tucker gets cloths out and cleaner and gets all the blood up except for what is all over us. tucker hugs me and tells me accidents happen and it's just her finger and fingers bleed quite a bit.....even though i know that...it was entirely preventable. tucker left and i sat in the chair quietly crying holding her. i racked my brain on how to make her feel better.

i put horton hears a who on for her and she lays down. here are the some pics and this is after a bunch was cleaned up but i didn't want to press anything...i felt too bad.

this is the blood on the face.

ellie was a blessing throughout the whole ordeal!!

look at her shirt...yep, ruined.

after horton, i tried giving her a warm bath (she LOVES baths). the warm water must've stung her little fingers so i quickly washed all the blood out of her hair and off her body. we get out and i find some clothes for her. we cuddled on the couch and watched the end of oprah. when ryan cuddles...there is something going on. next thing i know...tucker is home and we were both asleep on the couch. ryan had a second nap. but she woke up in such a HAPPY mood. :D i little relief. she ate well and wanted her "stickers" off her fingers. she found a flashlight and began playing like nothing ever happened. tucker told me to take the rest of the night off...i guess he could the day wore me. i took a shower. a much needed shower. i got out and tucker and ryan had made tents and had flashlights playing in them. i went to bed.

i am sure one asks "where did she get the razor in the first place?" well, let me tell. we received this package with offers in it from Gillette. it had sample body wash, shampoo, shaving cream, and a packaged razor. we left the razor on the kitchen table and didn't think much about it till yesterday when ryan almost chopped her fingers off. she got the razor and it had a plastic front and cardboard back....she opened it in her room. little did i know she could do that...then wait a minute...here goes another story....

a couple days before that....ry and i went to k-mart...i got some tylenol pm for backache. i have this habit of coming home...taking things out of the bag and then putting them away. well, i took everything out...but i realized it was almost time for tucker to come home from work so i was scurrying around the kitchen for food for him....little girl got the tylenol bottle...removed it from the box...popped it open and opened the foil. meanwhile...i am in the kitchen and banging pots...things of the nature. i check on her and i run to her....she starts spitting...i kept saying "ryan spit"....over and over...she ate a 1/4 and as i put my hand out she threw up EVERYWHERE. bath time. i get her in the bath and call poison control and tucker to tell him come home. poison control said it was nothing....no worries. i cried. she slept.

so, i have realized that RYAN...is clever. i have to be even more aware of EVERYTHING!! even things i don't think she could ever figure out. but 2 year olds are way smarter than i ever thought!

rocks and the color blue

recently, i have realized ryan has a problem. a serious one. she adores rocks. not that it's enough she loves her toy snakes, lizards, spiders, bugs....but now rocks. we bought her some a week ago and she will sit there...count them over and over. no one else can play with them either!

so happy about her rocks and her monies....

hopefully this obsession doesn't last long!but it is cheap!!

tucker and ryan make "pop pop" and ryan LOVES when her daddy lets her help. i think she misses putting a bag in the microwave and getting to touch buttons though.

ryan and izzy...bff's. we are having play dates on Wednesdays when we used to have class. our dance instructor lost her building so we aren't having dance anymore. but we take them there and let them run around a play.

this morning nutter brought me her giant elephant she calls horton. she has moved on from elmo and her heart belongs to horton now.

we are officially learning the color BLUE! YAY!!

yep, nutter has recognized the letters A, I, T....and now R. so, i figured she might need to learn colors too! she also recognizes the shapes circle and star. she know the difference between hot and cold. i am planning to have lesson plans for her after i have the baby. i am also trying to get her to recognize her name as well.

4 more weeks till baby is born. we were going to have ry's birthday party jan 31st, but i am worn out with anemia and being 9 months preggo. i plead temporary disability and insanity. we are now having her birthday the week after the baby is born. march 7. yes yes.....i am going to have major surgery, have a newborn, and throw a 2 year old a mickey mouse clubhouse birthday party @ our shack. i blame it on the hormones. LUCKY me...tucker gets to take off a week!! YAY!! my heart fluttered when i heard this...little does he know we have crazy work to do and we still don't know how ry will react to a new baby. also, i am calling on the crew to help me...i admit...i am blessed with great friends.

cereal...

i remember the first time i ever gave ry some cereal...way back when she was a meager 5 months old. i mixed rice cereal with lots of breastmilk...she liked it. this morning however, she wanted big people cereal...frosted mini wheats to be exact in a bowl with milk. she ate every bit of it...and all by herself using her spoon 100%. that's what i mean...they should label babies with a warning...will grow up quickly.

two years....whew...

i have recently organized my pictures on the computer. needless to say...i really wanted to break down and cry because my little baby girl seems too grown up for her own good. now she says "thanks" to her daddy instead of the normal "thank you". she has 'adventures of elmo in grouchland' memorized. ryan makes up her OWN songs...doesn't like others singing the ones she knows. last night, i went to pick her up in the nursery at church and she turned to all the kind ladies and said "bye everybody"...blew some kisses and said "come on mommy". (where does she learn all this??) ryan is officially obsessed with the letter T for some reason. we went to k-mart and all of a sudden she is yelling "a T a T mommy look a T!" i was like where...and there i saw it a T in k-mart...the sign is just a big K but inside the k is mart....geesh. she tries to count objects and has 1-12 memorized pretty well. she simply amazes me. two years ago it seemed impossible to me to think i would have a nearly two year old daughter...

almost 2

almost 1

barely a week old!!

time flies. maybe i learned my lesson with ryan and that time seriously flies by when you take it one day at a time!


okay, so i am taking a class at the church called 'keepers of the home'. i am seriously in love with it...the study is about being a Godly woman...biblical...not the traditional sense...more of the biblical side. changes the way i think and challenges me to become closer to God and praying for my family...for they truly do deserve being lifted up to the Lord each day. so. another new year's resolution comes up in the middle of january...i am going to get up early each day and go to the Lord in prayer before anything else. i am pumped about the study and can't wait to learn much more.

last night during church i started to have some pain....i kept praying that it wasn't labor...as much as i wish i was near feb. 26...i want this baby in there as long as possible. every time the baby moved it hurt worse. i didn't know how to contact my ob....i guess i should ask next week. i like our relationship...i pee, i weigh, he listens to the heartbeat and measures....then it's see ya later...everyone always talks about having a personable dr...i far rather have the smartest and meanest dr than a dumb one with bed-side manner. anyways, off the subject. i called our family dr. ...he thought it was heartburn...so, i took some tums...it didn't go away...i took tylenol and the pain seemed to ease. i don't know what it was but i am happy it went away...although, i only got 3 hrs of sleep in last night. i am hoping ry takes a good nap today so i can catch some zzzzzz's.

well, off to watch fraggle rock with ryan...she became a fan today. meanwhile, i will let her litter my arm with her other obsession...stickers.

time....

the bun in the oven is about to pop...5 more weeks till this little bundle of joy comes. i went to the dr Wednesday...everything looks good. i decided to take Ryan to this visit...normally i am in and out of the dr in 15 mins. well, they had several new patients scheduled back to back...making the schedule whacked. so, i took Ryan down to Dr. Mann's office and she watched a movie or just hung out with Dr. Mann. we will have to see if she goes to the next one...if they had toys or something in the office it wouldn't be such a big deal but a room full of chairs is a room of climbing to a 2 yr old.

Ryan now kisses the "babies" in my belly...she thinks 'they' are only in my protruding belly button. today she took her pretend stethoscope and put it on my belly and said "there ya go". yesterday we were playing in her room and she accidentally hit my nose as i was tickling her...made my eyes water...she placed her hands on my cheeks and said "it is okay baby" and gave me 5 kisses and a huge hug!!

today i thought i would see what Ryan would do with big girl panties on...i am not expecting much...i know one day she will be potty trained and i shouldn't train her on my time but hers. so, i put them on and she was thrilled she had Elmo on her panties. i take her to the potty and nothing happens....then 2 min. i hear.... "oooooooooooooo nooooooooo" in a panic voice...i run to her room and she had an accident...i am thinking potty training is RIGHT around the corner!! i am planning to wait till the end of march....

ryan the diva

riding down the road in the car i was attempting to teach ryan "bingo"...ya know, there was a farmer who had a dog....well, after she gets a part of it she tells me to STOP MOMMY...then carries on the tune herself...what is worse is when she tells daddy...she gets mad when he starts singing the songs she knows....that is why i write....ryan is a diva!