new lesson with being single.

learning how to do chores that i hardly ever had to do has been a part of being single. i learned how to change my own transmission pan by myself....i have had some chuckles at my expense since i am a woman. then i have the whole response 'wow! that's pretty awesome.'

yesterday, while driving to work from target, i realized my radio had turned off. my first thought was....oh man, now i don't have music. about the time i realized something major might be going on...it became ramp time. slowly my car went...but it was time to accelerate. i knew i wasn't getting up that ramp. of course, this ramp is on to one of the busiest highways in tulsa...also, the ramp had no shoulder. i called my friend, mack to come help. he brought his friend too. somehow we made it on the highway and off the next ramp.

needless to say, after much deliberation...it was my battery. now i know...how to change my battery.

Life Lately.

disbelief comes to mind while i ponder how my babes are about to turn 4 and 2. where did the time fly?

ryan has began writing letters. of course, it's with a little help and coaching that she makes her letters. she loves to color, paint, bake, sing and dance. she told me 'one day i will be bigger than you. i will be a giant.' i have no doubts she will be bigger than i. how true that statement maybe. she's such a radiant little girl. i love watching movies with her and simply playing dolls. she LOVES to play with dolls and such interesting conversations she has with them.

dylan. wow dylan. she's brilliant. the kids is smarter than smart. she loves kitties. she has found the word 'no' and uses it appropriately. she loves to watch ryan act like a nut. she loves to be tickled! did i mention the kid loves to eat? b/c she can throw some food down!

i am making a list of things that i want to do with the girls. i simply don't want to miss a beat with them.

i am currently enrolled in school. i have one semester left which is beautiful. i work at a little pizza place downtown. i love meeting all the different people. we get oil tycoon's to hippies. never a dull day cause then us staff think of something creative to do such as dance off's. yes, those happen.

my endeavors have simply changed since going through the big D. the big D is never easy. never is it easy to put a family well-being into the hands of the court. there is grief. there is sadness. there are extreme amounts of harsh words. however, divorce and death are more a like than people realize. there is moving on stage. what do i do now stage. there is going through assets. there are the people who come out of the woodwork just to put there two-cents out there. there are lawyers, courtrooms, dockets. there is the 'you did this...you did that'....there is the 'why did this happen to me'....but i am officially divorced as of sept. 21. and now it comes to embarking on a new chapter of my life. God has great things in store.